Certain things got me upset, from the past, present, and perhaps in the future, there will be things upsetting me under different circumstances, sometimes the things that happen really degrades the purpose and worth of my life on this earth. But, I try, to put those away, behind and forget about it, but it's a pain that is always there, its like scar caused by a nail on a piece of wood, you can patch it, but it will always be an imperfection, a scar in my heart, a scar in my life.
Well, perhaps thing will not be that bad, perhaps I should stop being such an extremist and start thinking in the position of others, and still act like I am kind and understanding, but in fact, that is hard, really hard.
People, do get more complicated as they get more education. Or perhaps, its just the character, or that is how the one up there planned things to go. I must remember, things happens for a reason, and I wish that I am and will always feel that these things happen for a good reason, in whatever way, it will be good for me, something I must not forget that I believed and will still believe in it.
Things do happen for a good reason, and for that, the outcome will be good. I must believe, and believe in myself. Let me return to become that person I was, the me who enjoys every moment. Please.
Perhaps another day, I will forget why this post is even here, but it's just an outlet, for encouragement. In the future, perhaps it wouldn't matter so much. Maybe I will be glad that all these happen, and I know these won't matter that much anymore in the future, I wish that the people are really as truthful and sincere as what they seem.
I must not let this affect me, as I know that I have a more difficult task ahead, that is to count my blessings and do the best in whatever given to me, perhaps things will not turn out as what I don't want it to be, because hard work will and can change everything.
It's in my hands, I must be confident of myself, I can do it! Jiayou.








