Wishes for the new year

It rained, it finally rained, after a long 6 weeks (I think)? It's pouring, is everyone rejoycing? Drought, we can't really say that this is a drought, but not raining for 6 weeks in a tropical country, that is a feat.

Time flew, 2013 is over, 2014 is here, 2014 CNY is here and left. How did you spend all those times? Caught up with some old friends, got included in some gatherings which I can't say I'm not appreciative of (as most of the time I'm just forgotten).

There were some downs in the weeks back, I'm just glad that things are looking better now. All I hope is everyone to live healthily and happily, be appreciative. Good time won't last, bad time won't last too. All I hope is that we all treasure all that we have with us now, leaving great memories one day if we should be gone, leave it to those to remember our good deeds and presence.

I watched a show last evening, and the host said don't get stressed out by comparing yourself to others. What is important is to compare yourself to your past and become better. Inspiring.

I would like to become a better person in 2014, being there for people and occasions who require me. Be happier and bring comfort and joy to people around me, to people who needs me. Saying is easy, but I hope that I will be able to hold this faith close to my heart and always remind myself.

Happy New Year everyone! Have a great 2014!
May your days be filled with peace and joy!

Happy birthday.

Every year, and only once a year, my phone would receive the most message. Today.

Lots of thoughts running through my mind as I receive all these wishes. How many more years to come? Though I feel blessed with all the kind wishes the loved ones, friends (and acquaintances) have given me, I can't help but to think that not all of them are people that I can rely on if I do need help one day. Harsh fact of life. Perhaps wishes are "cheap" to give, after all its only the press of a few buttons on the smart phone, the press of few of many buttons that one press on the smart phone everyday.

I don't know why am I so cynical today.

People say count your blessings, indeed these 26 years, I have been very very blessed and well taken care of. Maybe I have met a few 伯乐, 心里有数也庆幸, but they won't be there forever.

I think things will only go downhill. I can only depend on myself to keep things up, keep my mood, keep my motivation and keep my faith up that more good things will come.

Thanks all who took the effort to wish me, thanks my parents and auntie for bringing me up. Thanks my friends for being there when I needed, thanks to all the acquaintances that made my life more colourful.

Happy Birthday to you, my dearest self. ♥

Testing out the bluetooth keyboard

We got a new Samsung Galaxy Note 8.0 for our mom's bday, and my brother bought a Bluetooth keyboard together with it and I actually connected it  to the phone and typing this on the small keyboard... Haha Cheap Thrill but who doesn't love new gadgets?

Now I'm busy shopping for a case for the new tab, kind of expensive but it will be a good investment I think.

Tata gonna go continue with my shopping. Enjoy the last few hours of Sunday!

鱼和水的故事

鱼和水的故事

鱼说：你好美，我想我喜欢上了你。

水说：傻瓜，那仅仅是好感而已。

鱼说：真的，我不骗你。

水说：我不相信一见钟情。

日子一天天过去，鱼对水的感情也日趋笃厚。

鱼说：我喜欢和你在一起。

水说：那是因为你早已适应了我。

鱼说：我喜欢你的味道。

水说：那是因为你已习惯了我的存

在。

几天后，水要继续远行。

鱼说：我已离不开你。

水说：过几天你就会忘了我的。

鱼说：不，我不会爱上除你以外的人。

水说：那是因为你还没有遇到除我以外的人。

鱼说：你是我的全部。

水说：你却不是我的唯一。

鱼说：你到底在追寻什么？

水说：只有海温暖的胸怀才是我的唯一。

鱼说：你难道不能为我而停留吗？

水说：不，一旦驻足，我就成了死水，就永远无法看到海的样子了。

鱼说：那我们能否并架齐驱？

水说：你永远无法追上我的脚步。

鱼说：你能否为我稍作等待？

水说：我只喜欢奔腾不息。

鱼说：无论如何，我都要陪你游向大海。

水说：别傻了，你只是一条淡水鱼。

鱼说：我不想让你一个人面对风浪。

水说：我不会因此而感激你。

鱼说：我不想博得你的感激，我只想和你在一起。

水说：你知道我不可能爱上你。

鱼说：但你不能剥夺我爱你的权利。

水说：你这样只会害了自己。

水和鱼经过了一条大河，鱼只剩下半条命。

鱼说：我不知道还能陪你多远。

水说：回去吧，这样的日子不适合你。

鱼说：不，就算到了最后一秒，我都不会放弃。

水说：你傻得迷失了自己。

鱼说：那你能否试着接受一个傻瓜的爱呢？

水说：你明知道我的心早已被海占据。

鱼说：为什么？你总不能试着爱上我？

水说：我只相信，海才是我的唯一。

鱼和水经过了一条大江，鱼的生命只剩下四分之一。

鱼说：如果有一天我不在了，你会怎样？

水说：我会伤心，也会惋惜。

鱼说：那如果海不在了呢？

水说：我会心碎，也会随他死去。

鱼说：难道我们的朝夕相处还比不过一个幻影么？

水说：没有感情的相处只是多余的记忆。

鱼说：那海呢，你确信他会爱上你？

水说：他是我一生的梦，我不会放弃。

鱼无语，默默地陪水走完了剩下的距离。

终于，他们到了海边。水看到了她的海，但她却不是海的唯一。

是啊，海有博大的胸怀，博大到可以容纳百川在他怀里嬉戏，却无暇顾及水的存在。

水不愿做海身边众多佳丽之一，她决定离去。

这时，她想起了鱼，而鱼早已奄奄一息。

鱼说：我看到海了，他是那么英俊帅气，只有他才配得上你。

水说：但我却觉得他扑朔迷离。

鱼说：别担心，总有一天，海会发现你并爱上你。

水说：也许我真的错了。

鱼说：不会的，你那么爱海。

水说：曾经，也有一个人那么爱我，可我却忽略了。你说，你说呀，

说你爱我，说你要和我生生世世在一起。

鱼说：我不想给你一个兑现不了的承诺。

水说：你为什么不能自私一点？

鱼说：别这样，爱你是我的权利，爱我却不是你的义务。

水说：为什么我总是那么自私，那么固执？为什么我没有早点爱上你？

鱼说：别这样说，那样，我会走的很不安。

水说：为什么你总那么好，好到让我感到无地自容。

鱼说：忘了我吧，再去找一个值得你爱的人。

水说：你难道不是最值得我爱的人吗？

鱼说：别傻了，以后的日子，我不能陪你。

水说：我已错过太多的日子，我不能再错过你。

鱼说：别这样。

水说：我真的爱上你了。

鱼说：我都流泪了，你看见我幸福的泪了么？哦，我忘了，因为我在水里。

水说：不！ 我感受到了，因为现在，你在我心里。

鱼幸福地闭上了眼睛，在水的怀里。

水听见了自己心碎的声音……

有人牵挂的漂泊不叫流浪

有人陪伴的哭泣不叫悲伤

有人分担的忧愁不叫痛苦

有人分享的快乐才叫幸福.

Credits: ShuQi's FB

Found this meaningful. There is and there will be someone out there rooting for you, forever.
Look around you for that special person whom always have been there, and remember to treasure him/her.

Don't lose it

When we were young, we are poor. Money is everything, we plan carefully, we spend carefully, those little pocket money that there given to us like we were being showered with blessings from goddess, so little and so precious. Schooling time aside, we had so much time to travel, to watch drama online, to watch all the TV show from morning to night, to sleep till as late as we like, to eat macdonalds with friends after lessons, to slack and waste our life away.

When we grew up, the harsh reality of societal pressure starts acting up. We get into the workforce, begin a life of never ending rat race, rush and competition. Rush to succeed, rush to get promotion, rush to get a pay rise, rush to pay out bills, rush to manage our time. We have lost all of it, all the time and freedom. We are richer, but the price we paid with, freedom, carefree times. Money is lesser of our concern now (I wouldn't say not but lesser). We spend more to save our time, because time is money. And in the process, we neglect our body, we lose our health, our mind, our soul. We are soulless rats running a rat wheel. Where is the end?? We don't know, we don't care, because we are blind rats that only knows how to run till we drop. It's the harshness of the lives of people our generation. What can we do? Indulge in the rare moments that we have with our gadgets that probably lighten our mood a little?

Source: Internet

Next stage of our lives, before we know, we are 50, losing our health, losing our productivity and becoming the bane of society. Nobody is going to save us. Will we regret that we didn't work hard enough? Perhaps, or maybe also regret working too hard and didn't play enough, enjoy enough when we had our health.

Take care, to all including myself.
Don't lost it.
Bear in mind.

I like being in my own world,  because all I need to care is myself. I don't need people around me, I have me to myself for company, I don't need to be bothered about 世俗眼光. I can do what I like, what I want.

I hate to be left in my own world. It's not a matter of choice. When you are thrown far behind with progress zooming pass you, the world won't stop for you. Nobody will stop for you to hold your hand. Nobody will love you. People will trample on you so that they can move faster, climb higher. There is no compassion. There is no more hope.

And I can only self console,  self imagine.

Growing up

Just came back from a wedding dinner, Evan and Jo's wedding. The class had 14 of us there (excluding Jo), mah considered it pretty good turnout coz of the 10 absent, 3 are based overseas, 1 is overseas and the remaining 6 mia?

It's good to see them again, though it wasn't too long from the last time we met when Alison was back. It was esp happy to see jo, haven't met her for at least 3 years? Glad that she found her happiness,  established a good career and have a very adorable daughter.

Evan was very cute when I shook hands with him, he said he couldn't recognise me and blabbered some other things which I couldn't understand. I think he's drunk. Can sense that he's really happy tonight.

All these weddings and catching up with old friends, its all part and parcel of growing up. People get married and have kids. People establish their career and footing in society. People change and progress, but some relations still remains as the fundamental and so close to our heart.

Finale tomorrow...

Never thought that this day will come, well ot came but never thought too that I will have mixed feelings when it comes. Actually I thought that I would be happy, I was but recalling on all the merits and the paths walked, no doubt it was difficult but there was progress, it made me saw a different light that actually we can do it. It was a different type of frustration which we never had, it was an eye opener because it did brought us to somewhere better.

But now all these is going to stop, tomorrow. I can't really say that I didn't wish that it stopped,  but not the least so abruptly. How will life become? Guess that it will revert back to like before 1 year ago, good and miserable in another way. I guess I won't be contented with that,  but I really need a break, for now.

Farewells are never easy for me, but this is one in a very long while which I feel so deeply for, so mixed feelings. Such impact will always be remembered.

Good bye and all the best.

Mama

Today is mother's day. Happy mother's day mama! I love u! (Well no guts to say out loud so I only say that in my heart).

My mom... not the perfect mom but still no lesser than what I can ask for. That day she bought tutu kueh for me, so tasty, so loving.

世上只有妈妈好, 有妈的孩子像个宝。

Can't imagine life without my mama.

Wonderful~

Great feeling tonight, they should make all weekends 3 days! Yesterday felt like Saturday and today feels like Sunday, and guess what, it's still Sunday tomorrow!! Haha cheap thrill. Anyway the weather today was so hot, then it rained cats and dogs in the evening, but it's ok since we are back from Sao Mu by 4.30pm today, how wonderfully quick, 4 places in 3 hours, burn paper, clean up the place and hope ancestors bless me! Haha.

Ok today, actually there's alot of complains to make, life is still tough, but next week will be a wonderful week because I got my programs lined up for 3 nights of the week, and that means that I will die from rushing my work during office hours. Changes upcoming in office, I don't know how will things become, something good (or say bad), I won't be required to travel for work, but there will be changes in my job, changes in job scope, greater portfolio and more brainstorming. Not that I'm complaining but it is really something NEW and DIFFERENT, maybe not so different but something new and without a guide, you are the first to chiong, chiong to survive or die, nobody knows. Anyway ya need to go brainstorm on how to make things more effective, efficient and productive.

Secretly I am hoping that some news I heard in office comes true ;).

Oh well and need to go back up whatever additional work technology has brought for me. Maybe watch movie, inception? Or Batman?

It's wonderful to have choices, it's wonderful to be in the company of people, my uncles and aunts and parents are in their golden years, I am happy that they are happy. I need to be happy too, and I will be.